The 'Girls Next Door' always seemed like the picture of confidence, but former Playboy Playmate Holly Madison reveals that life with Hugh Hefner wasn't great for her self-esteem. In an interview with Life & Style given exclusively to PopEater, Madison shares details about her insecurities and the reasons she chose plastic surgery to accomplish her goals. See highlights below and for more, pick up this week's issue of Life & Style.
On her pre-plastic surgery body: "I always stuffed my bra. In fact, I had a boyfriend for years, and we moved so slowly. We didn't have sex for a long time because I had to gradually bring down my bra size so he wouldn't find out I stuffed my bra!"
On her issues with confidence: "Living with Hef brought down my self-esteem a lot. I was comparing myself to the other girls... You have to look a certain way at the mansion. If you look at Hef's girlfriend now, she basically looks like a clone of me. It's kind of weird."
Holly Madison appears on the cover of Life & Style magazine, telling the world why she opted to change her body and face.
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Holly Madison: "Plastic surgery made it easier for me to get things I wanted in my career. Without it, I wouldn't be where I am today."
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"My nose photographed really big in front of my face. If I wanted to do anything in the entertainment industry, I needed to get it fixed. I was definitely happy with the results," Madison tells Life & Style.
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On going under the knife: "When I was younger, I was the first person in my class to start getting boobs, so I thought I was going to be huge. But I stopped growing before everybody else started. That was a big letdown... I compared myself to those [Playboy playmates]. I knew what I wanted to look like and was kind of disappointed. I had a butt and no boobs."
"Plastic surgery made it easier for me to get things I wanted in my career. Without it, I wouldn't be where I am today... My nose photographed really big in front of my face. If I wanted to do anything in the entertainment industry, I needed to get it fixed. I was definitely happy with the results. It made me more confident. And a lot of doors open when you look a certain way."
On future enhancements: "I wouldn't consider more surgery - unless my body implodes after I have kids! And I'm scared of getting stuff [like Botox] put into my face. It makes you look like you have a rubber mask on. Beauty is truly on the inside. Looks don't define you - they're just a tool to get what you want."
you can always tell the neurotic ones, it reads all over in her face, I'm surprised he even bothered with her. they always end up with a complaint which is trouble down the line.
I agree. Just look again at what she said. She wants to blame her self esteem issues on Hefner and other girls. But she was willing to get plastic surgery to get what she wanted.And don't think she wouldn't do it again if she thinks it would help her so called career. She's just another girl willing to do want every it takes to get a name in the entertaiment industry.She is as big a fake as the nose and boobs she sporting.......
i just love Holly. And the other 2 girls. Hey she's a girl and has opinons about how she feels. And how she was treated. No matter in the "spot light" or not. Us girls have all been there a time or two. I just hope she can find happiness.. Good luck!
Puhlease!!! She and Hefner mutually used one another. Maybe THAT damaged her Self -esteem.Low self esteem is primarily caused by not leading an esteemable life and not doing esteemable things.
Exactly, if Holly wanted to really get back at Hef she would have talked about all his wrinkles, his flat pigeon chest, his skinny arms, slight middle aged potbelly, his skinny legs, liver spots, and knobby knees. I mean there are more wrinkles on him than a prune factory. Whenever she saw him naked, all she thought about were dollar signs. Like when Anna Nicole Smith married oil billionaire J. Howard Marshall who was in his 90s.
ralphgmia middle aged potbelly??? hes way beyond middle aged, isnt he???? i think hugh is a huge bore. always about the blonde with manufactured looking body. yuck. he has no real taste, his taste in women is tacky and uninteresting. its all superficial with him. he has no imagination when it comes to women. sexiness and sex appeal lies in the imagination and brain, not in blonde or dyed hair and altered unnatural body parts to look like clones..yawwwnnn.
I think she should chill a bit because without Hef she would more then likely be a nobody in the world, from what I saw he took great care of her and for her to dis him like this is of the wall. She is mad because he would not marry her and have kids with her so she could continue to live off of Hef thats all.
I totally agree with you--she's mad because Hef wouldn't marry her and didn't want kids, and she wanted to have kids with him to ensure a regular paycheck every month! She looked fine before, so the whole self esteem thing is crap. She had no problem strutting around on the TV show ina bikini and showing her ass off in a thong, and posing for Playboy. She was perfectly happy as long as she was getting what she wanted--and now that she isn't getting what she wants, she is blaming other people. Plus--she is as dumb as a rock, and without Hef she'd be even more of a nobody than she is now! He took very good care of her, and she lived a much nicer life with him than she ever could have lived on her own, so she should shut her mouth. She is phony, classless and has some nerve to bite the hand that fed her for years. She's mad because now she's alone, some other chick with bleached hair, fake boobs and blown up lips has taken her place and she is suffering from a case of "sour grapes". She's got a laugh as annoying as a woodpecker, she's got no personality, and she thought she'd be able to "go places" based on her looks. Sorry, girlie. Bridget got a show because she has a brain and she is nice and fun and can speak in front of a camera and didn't rely on her looks to get her everywhere. Kendra got a TV show because she is just entertaining to watch, and I'd go so far as to say she isn't too smart as far as the ways of the world, but I don't think she is necessarily "fake". Holly is dumb, boring, annoying and uninteresting.
Is this revelation due to the fact that Holly is the only one of the "Girls Next Door" that wasn't signed for her own show? She shouldn't say that "living with Hef" caused her low self-esteem. Her self esteem issues came from her being jealous of the other girls...it had nothing to do with Hef. You could tell by her behavior that she had issues with who she is/isn't.
Dont flatter yourself, Holly! Hef's been having blond haired chicks way before u came on the scene! And ur self esteem probably sucked, waaaay before u met Hef! But u didn't mind spending his monies, hmmm?
Absolutely except he's been hangin with blondes way before her parents even thought about having kids. She's just pissed because Hef wouldnt marry her!
I wonder what men think, because I think Holly looked better "before" the boob job. Teh perfectly round overly large breast make you look less innocent, more provocative and old.
Is this to lead one to believe that if a guy like Hef wants to sleep with a woman he has to tear down her self esteem(control)? Or was it his millions that made her open up her legs to him(greed)? Either way it sounds pretty sleazy? I wonder if this is why the bad boys(evil men so don't call them bad boys it makes them sound innocent when they're not). On the other hand is this why all the rich men get girls(money). That also makes it sound sleazy. Any way you look at it the types of relationships like these are sleazy.
Hey Holly, I still think you are mesmerisingly Beautiful. I would so love to kiss those CSL Lips, and I know I'm not the only one. As for these other guys answers about money, well you guys just wouldnt know because it isnt the money that finally brings them to oneself it is one's self confidence and aires, it is the vibrate personality that gets her attention and makes her want him, Hugh Hefner has a Magnetic Personality. She will only find happiness with older men now because she has seen how easily they let things go without screaming and yelling like all the younger insecure men do. I have been chased by many a girl half my age for much of my adult life, I'm not Rich like Hef but I always got the girl. I still have the girl, because I am caring sweet, loving, interested in what they have to say and helpful, it just takes a bit of Experience to know what they want. And Believe me even I don't truly know women and never will, but I can always get the prettiest hottest woman in the room to go home with me. So hey Holly Keep on with the show girl its gonna get better.
all these young voluptous girls ALWAYS say about these older ( rich ) men is "i just love him so much"!!!! yeah , well lets do this , lets take away all the money then we'll see how much you love him! they'll be gone faster than the roadrunner gettin away from wile e. coyote. what in the hell would a 20 something beautiful girl want with an old man in his 70's or 80's BESIDES money??? they sure ain't goin surfin together or anything like that. this is a no brainer, MONEY, MONEY ,MONEY nuff said.
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Wednesday 02 September
By ED
I am sure that a beautiful millionairess like Holly cares what a silly little AOL whiner like you thinks.
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Wednesday 02 September
By Tom
Holly needs lots of help!
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Wednesday 02 September
By andy
you can always tell the neurotic ones, it reads all over in her face, I'm surprised he even bothered with her. they always end up with a complaint which is trouble down the line.
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Wednesday 02 September
By Cliff
I agree. Just look again at what she said. She wants to blame her self esteem issues on Hefner and other girls. But she was willing to get plastic surgery to get what she wanted.And don't think she wouldn't do it again if she thinks it would help her so called career. She's just another girl willing to do want every it takes to get a name in the entertaiment industry.She is as big a fake as the nose and boobs she sporting.......
Wednesday 02 September
By Linda
i just love Holly. And the other 2 girls. Hey she's a girl and has opinons about how she feels. And how she was treated. No matter in the "spot light" or not. Us girls have all been there a time or two. I just hope she can find happiness.. Good luck!
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Wednesday 02 September
By boyd watkins
Puhlease!!! She and Hefner mutually used one another. Maybe THAT damaged her Self -esteem.Low self esteem is primarily caused by not leading an esteemable life and not doing esteemable things.
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Wednesday 02 September
By ralphgmiami
Exactly, if Holly wanted to really get back at Hef she would have talked about all his wrinkles, his flat pigeon chest, his skinny arms, slight middle aged potbelly, his skinny legs, liver spots, and knobby knees. I mean there are more wrinkles on him than a prune factory. Whenever she saw him naked, all she thought about were dollar signs. Like when Anna Nicole Smith married oil billionaire J. Howard Marshall who was in his 90s.
Wednesday 02 September
By marla
ralphgmia middle aged potbelly??? hes way beyond middle aged, isnt he???? i think hugh is a huge bore. always about the blonde with manufactured looking body. yuck. he has no real taste, his taste in women is tacky and uninteresting. its all superficial with him. he has no imagination when it comes to women. sexiness and sex appeal lies in the imagination and brain, not in blonde or dyed hair and altered unnatural body parts to look like clones..yawwwnnn.
Wednesday 02 September
By sonya
I think she should chill a bit because without Hef she would more then likely be a nobody in the world, from what I saw he took great care of her and for her to dis him like this is of the wall. She is mad because he would not marry her and have kids with her so she could continue to live off of Hef thats all.
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Wednesday 02 September
By Caroline
I totally agree with you--she's mad because Hef wouldn't marry her and didn't want kids, and she wanted to have kids with him to ensure a regular paycheck every month! She looked fine before, so the whole self esteem thing is crap. She had no problem strutting around on the TV show ina bikini and showing her ass off in a thong, and posing for Playboy. She was perfectly happy as long as she was getting what she wanted--and now that she isn't getting what she wants, she is blaming other people. Plus--she is as dumb as a rock, and without Hef she'd be even more of a nobody than she is now! He took very good care of her, and she lived a much nicer life with him than she ever could have lived on her own, so she should shut her mouth. She is phony, classless and has some nerve to bite the hand that fed her for years. She's mad because now she's alone, some other chick with bleached hair, fake boobs and blown up lips has taken her place and she is suffering from a case of "sour grapes". She's got a laugh as annoying as a woodpecker, she's got no personality, and she thought she'd be able to "go places" based on her looks. Sorry, girlie. Bridget got a show because she has a brain and she is nice and fun and can speak in front of a camera and didn't rely on her looks to get her everywhere. Kendra got a TV show because she is just entertaining to watch, and I'd go so far as to say she isn't too smart as far as the ways of the world, but I don't think she is necessarily "fake". Holly is dumb, boring, annoying and uninteresting.
Wednesday 02 September
By Hugh
Just another ho with "Daddy" issues.
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Wednesday 02 September
By jules
Is this revelation due to the fact that Holly is the only one of the "Girls Next Door" that wasn't signed for her own show? She shouldn't say that "living with Hef" caused her low self-esteem. Her self esteem issues came from her being jealous of the other girls...it had nothing to do with Hef. You could tell by her behavior that she had issues with who she is/isn't.
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Wednesday 02 September
By Lil Tomboi
Dont flatter yourself, Holly! Hef's been having blond haired chicks way before u came on the scene! And ur self esteem probably sucked, waaaay before u met Hef! But u didn't mind spending his monies, hmmm?
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Wednesday 02 September
By sherri
Absolutely except he's been hangin with blondes way before her parents even thought about having kids. She's just pissed because Hef wouldnt marry her!
Wednesday 02 September
By debbe
I wonder what men think, because I think Holly looked better "before" the boob job.
Teh perfectly round overly large breast make you look less innocent, more provocative and old.
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Wednesday 02 September
By travis
"beauty is on the inside," say the woman who has had multiple plastic surgeries
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Wednesday 02 September
By ralphgmiami
Is this to lead one to believe that if a guy like Hef wants to sleep with a woman he has to tear down her self esteem(control)? Or was it his millions that made her open up her legs to him(greed)? Either way it sounds pretty sleazy? I wonder if this is why the bad boys(evil men so don't call them bad boys it makes them sound innocent when they're not). On the other hand is this why all the rich men get girls(money). That also makes it sound sleazy. Any way you look at it the types of relationships like these are sleazy.
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Wednesday 02 September
By Ubenpulinmypudah
Hey Holly, I still think you are mesmerisingly Beautiful. I would so love to kiss those CSL Lips, and I know I'm not the only one. As for these other guys answers about money, well you guys just wouldnt know because it isnt the money that finally brings them to oneself it is one's self confidence and aires, it is the vibrate personality that gets her attention and makes her want him, Hugh Hefner has a Magnetic Personality.
She will only find happiness with older men now because she has seen how easily they let things go without screaming and yelling like all the younger insecure men do. I have been chased by many a girl half my age for much of my adult life, I'm not Rich like Hef but I always got the girl. I still have the girl, because I am caring sweet, loving, interested in what they have to say and helpful, it just takes a bit of Experience to know what they want. And Believe me even I don't truly know women and never will, but I can always get the prettiest hottest woman in the room to go home with me. So hey Holly Keep on with the show girl its gonna get better.
Wednesday 02 September
By Susie
I was a fan of the show and sometimes catch "Kendra" Funny how this comes out after she leaves. Bitter because he did not marry her.......hmmmmmm
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Wednesday 02 September
By woodi
all these young voluptous girls ALWAYS say about these older ( rich ) men is "i just love him so much"!!!! yeah , well lets do this , lets take away all the money then we'll see how much you love him! they'll be gone faster than the roadrunner gettin away from wile e. coyote. what in the hell would a 20 something beautiful girl want with an old man in his 70's or 80's BESIDES money??? they sure ain't goin surfin together or anything like that. this is a no brainer, MONEY, MONEY ,MONEY nuff said.
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