Jesse James lost his composure while in court on July 15 during his ongoing custody trial against ex-wife Janine Lindemulder, PEOPLE reports. While on the stand, James choked up while talking about the childhood abuse he endured as a child. He also discussed his struggle with alcoholism.

Lindemulder's lawyer asked the Monster Garage host if he'd hit rock bottom earlier this year. "Yes. To some degree," James replied. "I am continuing treatment," he added, alluding to his stint in rehab.

James revealed on the stand that he "was a victim of childhood abuse and trauma" and that he "pretty much raised myself." James previously said his father abused him when he was younger and it led to his cheating behavior.