Sadie Frost Slashed Arms With Scissors During Marriage to Jude Law

Frost met Law while working on the film 'Shopping.' At the time, she was a married 25-year-old mother and he was a 19-year-old unknown.

"I knew that by even entertaining thoughts of Jude, I was jeopardizing an idyllic home life, the most secure relationship I'd ever had. I crushed my unwelcome ideas about Jude, but it wasn't easy," she writes.

Frost later left husband Gary Kemp and bought a house with Law. "The force of the love I felt for Jude and his intense ambition made me feel out of control," she recalls in the book.

In 1996, Frost became pregnant with she and Jude's first child, but Law put his movie career before fatherhood. "Jude was away a lot, while I was sitting on the sofa, getting fatter and gripped by a nagging sense that I was jeopardizing my love," she writes.

On October 6, 1996, the pair welcomed their first child, Rafferty. Although Frost should have been thrilled with her new bundle of joy, she became depressed as Law went back to work and left her all alone.

"Eventually I wanted to press the self-destruct button. One night I arranged a babysitter and went out. I partied all night and got home the next day racked with guilt. I was sitting at my dressing table, not feeling anything -- just numb. I watched my hand slowly pick up a pair of scissors. It was as if I was being sucked down lower into the chair and the scissors seemed to be drawn to my arm," she writes. "I appeared to have cut myself. Blood dripped down my arm. There was no sense of panic within me -- I just felt empty."

Frost had nowhere to turn, admitting her parents -- psychedelic artist David Vaughan, who did work for The Beatles, and actress Mary Davidson -- weren't a big part of her life. "Dad had taken LSD and suffered psychotic episodes for years afterward, eventually ending up in a psychiatric clinic," she writes.

Despite her severe post-natal depression, she was successfully treated. The couple married on September 2, 1997. Life seemed to be going well for the duo, but her depression returned after the birth of the couple's daughter, Iris Tallulah, in October 2000.

"Jude tried to understand, but the more we had to socialize at grand dinner parties in Hollywood, the more I felt my self-esteem slipping away. Soon I admitted defeat and went to see a doctor, who diagnosed PND and put me back on medication. The more I worried about my condition, the more self-obsessed I became and the less attention I gave to Jude. Back in London, we were busy with the children and our careers. Jude was up for lots more roles and I was still feeling low, struggling to hold the relationship together, feeling threatened," she writes. "It was probably a bad idea to get pregnant again, knowing how badly I suffered with PND, but part of me wanted another baby."

Soon after, newspapers reported that Iris allegedly swallowed an ecstasy pill at a children's party at a London club while Law was out of the country filming 'Cold Mountain.'

Their third son, Rudy Indiana Otis, was born September 10, 2002. But her recurrent depression ripped the final seam in the couple's marriage, leading to its eventual demise during a trip to Thailand.

"Jude and I flew to Thailand separately. Right away I knew something was wrong. I knew it was over, the way he looked at me. I was underweight, depressed and scared. We got through the holiday, then we had to go to Los Angeles for a meeting with our joint agency. When we got to our hotel room I could bear it no longer. I asked him if he loved me but he didn't need to reply -- I knew the answer. The moment had arrived and I knew the relationship with the man I loved was over."

Frost and Law divorced on October 29, 2003. Frost blamed him for her post-natal depression, according to court papers obtained by Reuters. She claimed Law's behavior forced her to seek professional medical treatment three times following the birth of the couple's third child.

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