Fantasia Barrino'American Idol' winner Fantasia Barrino is finally opening up about her recent overdose -- admitting it was no accident. "I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out," Barrino tells VH1 in a new 'Behind the Music' interview (via PEOPLE).

Two weeks ago, Barrino was admitted to Carolinas Medical Center-Pineville in Charlotte, N.C., after overdosing on aspirin and a sleep aid, following reports that she was seeing a married man, Antwuan Cook, who she believed was separated from his wife. Barrino is now reportedly facing a lawsuit from the man's wife.

"At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with," she admits.