Nearly nine months after her son's tragic death by suicide, Marie Osmond is finally opening up about her loss. Osmond's 18-year-old son, Michael Blosil, took his own life by jumping off a Los Angeles apartment building in February. The singer, who adopted Michael with ex-husband Brian Blosil, told Oprah of the tragedy, "I've been through some tough things in my life [but] this is probably the hardest thing I've been through."
Osmond admitted to understanding her son's plight, having suffered from post-partum depression herself. One of their last conversations was telling, she says. "When I heard him say to me 'I have no friends,' it brought back when I went through depression," she said. "Because you really feel so alone."
"I said, 'Mike, I'm going to be there Monday, and it's going to be OK,' but depression doesn't wail til Monday."
Osmond painfully recalled the night that Michael died, starting with a phone call from him just as she was going on stage during her Vegas show. She said that she was going through a costume change when her phone rang. "I couldn't get to it," she admitted. Later when she called him back, he didn't pick up.
"I believe in female intuition. I especially believe in mother's intuition. I knew something was wrong."
She asked her daughter to stay with her that night in the hotel and at 2 AM the phone rang. On the other line was a security guard from her gated community. "[He] said 'there are some people here to see you. It's the police I believe' ... He said, 'well it's the coroner's office.'"
"I knew it was Michael," she said with tears streaming.
According to the police report, the time of death was around 9:30 PM. Osmond told Oprah that he called her about 45 minutes before that. "You know some particulars are so in stone, other things are just like this wave that comes in and out of your heart. I've been through some tough times in my life, Oprah. This is probably the hardest thing I've ever been through."
When asked by Oprah if she thought things would have been different if she had just spoken to Michael when he called, Osmond responded by saying, "I think if you live in 'what ifs,' you stop living."
While many media outlets have reported that Michael's suicide stemmed from the conflict between his Mormon upbringing and his reported homosexuality, Osmond denied these claims. "My son was not gay," she said. "And it wouldn't matter if he was."
She added, "I know I'll see him again because of what I believe."
She told Oprah that Blosil started abusing drugs when he was 12 and took several trips to rehab, however, she disputed any notion that narcotics played a role in his death.
"My son was clean when he jumped," she said of the teen, who was a student at L.A.'s Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising. "There were no drugs in his system, but I believe that the ramifications of them were there. That was the hard part."
Blosil left a suicide note, and Osmond did her best to summarize it: "He basically said he knew that morning was the last time he would get up and brush his teeth, make his bed, those kinds of things. He had made his decision, I guess. And uh, [he wrote] that he loved his family ... The pain was so intense."
Osmond also confirmed rumors that her son had attempted suicide while she was competing on 'Dancing With the Stars' in 2007. "During that time I was going through a very public divorce. Going through custody battles ... and he received some news that something had happened to some of his family members ... and he couldn't deal with it. He promised he would never do it again."
Where do you get your amazing information!!! All of these people believe in God, the only certain in any of our lives! If you believe in anything why not make it love...which is what God is and is really all their is. I hope that you to find hope, love and something to believe in. You do not have to look for God...he calls you by name and loves you unconditionally! It is just Great to live under his care.
I lost my 32 Y/O son to suicide and it is truely the worst pain you can feel. And for MARIE, God bless you and your waves of grief will gwt further and further apart.
My cousin, 37 shot himself in the head. His poor mother is so hurt and I know she is horribly confused. I always think how bad and alone he must have felt and wish I could have helped him. I am sorry for your loss
Marie my dear, you have an amazing gift. I was so moved by your testimonial. There could not have been a dry eye in the audience, I know my eyes were filled with tears. I was amazed by your voice. Oh my gosh, it was as if God lifted the heavens abd a legend of angels came out singing. You are a survivor and I can not imagine the severe pain you are going through, but I'm amazed by your strength. Fulfill your sons wish and be happy, be loved and give love.
I ttruely understand how Marie feels to lose someone that you love very much.I have nocontact with my own daughter for 4 years,it feels like part of me is gone. But i love her very much and hope to see her one day.Marie stay strong you other kids need you.
I feel your pain Marie. I have lost a father, brother, and recently my son,all to suicide don't know when the pain stops. It hurts so much at times I don't know how I am going to keep getting up the next day. Sorry you have to go through this.
Dear Vicky, My heart goes out to you. I couldn't even begin to imagine the pain you have endured. You truely are a survivor (Not to say that Marie is not)! I wish you...ALL THE STRENGTH IN THE WORLD & pray that you are able to get through. Life is so unfair sometimes for some & then not for others. I guess we all have different missions here on earth with different lessons to learn & teach. I am sorry you have/had to had this hand dealt to you. Please hang in there Vicky & if possible try to help bring Depression into light for others. Sometimes the best way to help ourselves is trhough helping others. GOD BLESS YOU!!! & I say this with all my heart. Hugs-Chris
Geez, I hope Marie got all her guilt out of her. Her and her son spoke the night before and he supposedly cried to her and bascally pleaded for help. She did nothing, and he phoned the night he jumped and she didn't take the call as she was "to busy" getting ready for some show in Vegas. He's 18, tried to kill himself before, and 250+ miles away yet your more concerned with some show your going to do. Please. Get your "feel sorry for me" crap from others, you should have, with your money, been on the first plane to L.A. the night before if you "just felt something was so wrong" with your child. You people feeling sorry for her because she ignored his cries for help are a joke. Any woman who then admits "my marriage was terrible" after it took her 20 years to figure that out is just one dumb woman to me. I know your groupies and you like her but for Christ sake, call it like it is, she sure was NO mother of the year.
No Donna, I am not Heartless at all. I call them like I see them. I do not believe that she put her son "First", not then and not many other times either. But, you go on calling people whom you have no idea names, and whatever. You ma'am are just typical. By the way, my two boys think I have one BIG heart, but I appreciate your concern. But you keep being the Lead in the Bleeding Hearts Club and I'll lead the Reality Club of Life.
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Nearly nine months after her son's tragic death by suicide, Marie Osmond is finally opening up about her loss. Osmond's 18-year-old son, Michael Blosil, took his own life by jumping off a Los Angeles apartment building in February. The singer, who adopted Michael with ex-husband Brian Blosil, told Oprah of the tragedy, "I've been through some tough things in my life [but] this is probably the hardest thing I've been through."
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Grant...Do you always kick someone when they are down?
you're a rightous POS.
and the third one is not cult related either, fyi.
What's wrong with you.................
Give it a rest. The woman is grieving.
I feel that's what you want to believe-not what is.
Huh? Get a grip!
Where do you get your amazing information!!! All of these people believe in God, the only certain in any of our lives! If you believe in anything why not make it love...which is what God is and is really all their is. I hope that you to find hope, love and something to believe in. You do not have to look for God...he calls you by name and loves you unconditionally! It is just Great to live under his care.
I cried too when I watched this show today. I lost my 25 year old son to suicide in 2007.
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I lost my 32 Y/O son to suicide and it is truely the worst pain you can feel. And for MARIE, God bless you and your waves of grief will gwt further and further apart.
Jeanne, I am so sorry for your loss.
My cousin, 37 shot himself in the head. His poor mother is so hurt and I know she is horribly confused. I always think how bad and alone he must have felt and wish I could have helped him. I am sorry for your loss
Marie my dear, you have an amazing gift. I was so moved by your testimonial. There could not have been a dry eye in the audience, I know my eyes were filled with tears. I was amazed by your voice. Oh my gosh, it was as if God lifted the heavens abd a legend of angels came out singing. You are a survivor and I can not imagine the severe pain you are going through, but I'm amazed by your strength. Fulfill your sons wish and be happy, be loved and give love.
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I ttruely understand how Marie feels to lose someone that you love very much.I have nocontact with my own daughter for 4 years,it feels like part of me is gone. But i love her very much and hope to see her one day.Marie stay strong you other kids need you.
Amen.. xoxoxo.
Marie has shown the true soul and heart of
a Mother's love. God bless the Osmond family.
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I feel your pain Marie. I have lost a father, brother, and recently my son,all to suicide don't know when the pain stops. It hurts so much at times I don't know how I am going to keep getting up the next day. Sorry you have to go through this.
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Dear Vicky,
My heart goes out to you. I couldn't even begin to imagine the pain you have endured. You truely are a survivor (Not to say that Marie is not)! I wish you...ALL THE STRENGTH IN THE WORLD & pray that you are able to get through. Life is so unfair sometimes for some & then not for others. I guess we all have different missions here on earth with different lessons to learn & teach. I am sorry you have/had to had this hand dealt to you. Please hang in there Vicky & if possible try to help bring Depression into light for others. Sometimes the best way to help ourselves is trhough helping others. GOD BLESS YOU!!! & I say this with all my heart. Hugs-Chris
Geez, I hope Marie got all her guilt out of her. Her and her son spoke the night before and he supposedly cried to her and bascally pleaded for help. She did nothing, and he phoned the night he jumped and she didn't take the call as she was "to busy" getting ready for some show in Vegas. He's 18, tried to kill himself before, and 250+ miles away yet your more concerned with some show your going to do. Please. Get your "feel sorry for me" crap from others, you should have, with your money, been on the first plane to L.A. the night before if you "just felt something was so wrong" with your child. You people feeling sorry for her because she ignored his cries for help are a joke. Any woman who then admits "my marriage was terrible" after it took her 20 years to figure that out is just one dumb woman to me. I know your groupies and you like her but for Christ sake, call it like it is, she sure was NO mother of the year.
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Mike, YOU ARE A HEARTLESS BASTARD. How could anyony be so IGNORATE as to blame her for her son's suicid. Just shows the stupidity of some people.
No Donna, I am not Heartless at all. I call them like I see them. I do not believe that she put her son "First", not then and not many other times either. But, you go on calling people whom you have no idea names, and whatever. You ma'am are just typical. By the way, my two boys think I have one BIG heart, but I appreciate your concern. But you keep being the Lead in the Bleeding Hearts Club and I'll lead the Reality Club of Life.